Selfish Lover

A desperado of your path,
A constant loved pain.
An assassin of dreams,
A wrecker at my best.

My words never meant anything,
I was after what I wanted.
My pleasure comes first,
My pride is all my glory.

I own you fully but I can apportion me.
I found you all pure and precious,
What I have made of you is disgraceful,
I lied and you trusted me with your life.

Now all you see around you is fear,
All you feel are scars of pain,
No assurance is permanent,
Worse is we are blood bound.

I never knew I could be a sinister,
A creator of what you have become,
A mother of pain and regret,
A cause of suspicion and doubt.

If only I could take back time and undo,
My disrespect and pride,
Undo the worst of things I said,
Undo my lies and love you right.

Set you free of the torment I caused,
Build a trust you can always rely on,
Create in us one mind with experience,
And wait for you no matter the time it took.

It’s not that I never said sorry,
But you cannot believe it is all safe.
Endlessly on the look and ready to defend yourself,
Ready to give up, dreaming of the past drama,

This is my realization of what my past is,
I promise to always be true and open.
I’m constantly on the clock to liberate us,
This is my life’s purpose.

I pray to God for strength,
To overcome selfish desires,
To have a pure and clean heart,
And to reciprocate to your true love and honesty.

18 thoughts on “Selfish Lover

  1. An apology cannot undo what has been done, but it can help ease the pain and tension of the aftermath. It gives hope for rebuilding, and puts value on the relationship rather than the individual’s pride.
    And if I’m to regret my actions I’ll prolly sing a song and say ” if only we could turn back time, back to the day we said goodbye, maybe your heart would still be mine, my love IF ONLY” but it’s never too late to say sorry.

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  2. Words come with thousands of meaning depending on the person reading it. But for two people in love the all have one simple meaning…LOVE in different faces….apology through such beautiful words is sth to show the true love of a lover.
    Edu wonderful words there….

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