Regret

At this point I see no meaning for pride,
I wonder of that persona who cost me,
And how stupid he was to make such decisions,
And why I regret now and it was me.

I ask why I lost my humility,
I cry to turn back time so I could not be here now,
I wonder why I lost my faith and morals,
I search for myself but all I see is regret.

I have lost more than I planned to achieve,
I have no worth when I stand before truth,
I have no esteem before my peers,
I lean back and cover myself on a lie.

I put up that smile for the camera,
But my health is lost with my regret,
I speak of wisdom and learn but I come out as a fool,
I look within and see all the things I could have done better.

The filth and corruption I bear,
Like bad air chokes my lungs,
I long to live among the faithful,
But judgment scares me to stay alone.

I wonder how to learn from these mistakes?
How can I let go of me who hurt me?
A skeleton of broken bones,
I am lost in regret.

I understand life is about choices,
Some haunt us for a life time.
And we are what we choose to be.

9 thoughts on “Regret

  1. I have been there before. I was scared. There’s this thing “no matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up”.
    And if the consequences are rightfully yours to suffer, endure it, and never repeat. Teach others if possible to avoid the bad path you’ve been through. At least I know that helps everyone, even yourself. You’ll feel better about yourself

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