CHASTE

My brain was a vacuum, my heart was undefiled, my emotions were naive.
If only they were likened to the beautiful Monalisa.
I had a limited understanding of nature versus nature and my innocence sprouted.
Life advanced while my childhood was just a snapshot.
The impact on my conscience was not faultless.
Fear, tension, and desire grew as she diminished.

Happiness is a state of mind that thrives when I am at peace within.
I reminisce of how my mother’s smile would make me happy.
Settling for dad when she was not around was disheartening.
But when everyone’s life journey was separated from mine.
When the only heart beating in a room was mine.
I understood loneliness, rejection, and jaundiced,
They fight to scope apart of me, reacting to every act of vulnerability,
But love, I understood what you are made of and is the reason I am surviving today.

A voice holding me back from within, stuck in the comparison trap.
Self-doubt sways all my decision, I mind but not for myself,
Caring what they will say when I become a makanga!
Daily people influence my thoughts and actions yet they know nothing concerning who I am. I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am; I am who I think you think I am.
My self-concept should be in harmony within and on my surface.
I am the artist to paint my mind with self-love and confidence abides in me,
To believe my reality is shaped by my mind and the environment will adapt.

We age and are corrupted or shaped by our definition about good and bad,
Life is painful with no self-love, confidence or happiness.
The scars that mark our bodies are strange to all living creatures but us.
Problem is we let others decide and build our fulfillment of the good in life.
Build your mind to be a source of your happiness and do not forget to guard your heart.
Joy, interest, curiosity, excitement, gratitude, love, and contentment are all within our reach.