PURE

Life removes all the innocence,
You never know the line until you cross it,
Then the gray area exists not,
And you have to be okay and move on.

The mind imprints,
What we know and don’t,
What we like and don’t,
I am left wondering where is the control,
Or who is in control.

The body had its own agenda,
Its a fight when it doesn’t get what it wants,
From childhood to adulthood it creates or destroys itself,
But there are no great moments in life like when the body is in control.

The soul is the ultimate solution,
A filter for what is wrong and right,
Some claim not to have and others say it does not exist,
I say we all agree with who is in control.

FACE

Is the first thing you see,
In a person or circumstance,
It affect your opinion or impression,
Every pieces in life have different faces.

I am one in all these,
Every hope and strength,
Every decision and path,
I am but one amongst many.

Being one is not singular,
I see hope as much as hopelessness,
I see strength as much as weakness,
I trust as easily as I batray with a cunning hate,
I love and lie with just this one face.

It’s my impaired emotion and lack of control,
That my one is driven differently to serve self.
I am the center, I do it all for me.

When we first met…

When I first met you,
I must admit there is a lot I did not know,
About myself or you or about us,
I did not know what we will create.

I did not know your composition,
The complexity of your beauty,
And its sharp edges of jealousy,
I though I knew what I wanted.

Just by beholding with my eyes,
I was convinced it was you,
I was confident to make you follow my lead,
There are things I can change from when we first met.

When we first met, I lied a lot,
I was not sure you would want the real me,
I lied about my age, my status and how cool I was,
But having known you I know lying was weak of me.

Years down the line now,
Sometimes I ask why did we meet?
Then life happened,
And we have evolved to this.

Seeing the changes I have made,
How firm you have always stood by my side,
The meaning of what we are is now,
And we continue to define us further as we grow.

Lest I forget the lessons you have taught me,
Seeing you become a woman from a girl I once met,
The knowledge and substance of what we have created.
It could not be made possible by me just being a man.
You had to be there.

I could not choose anyone else,
To have spent the time with.
To have to spend the rest of my time with.
Loving you is healing me.

When Not

Comfort is best given if detached.
Love is well denoted without commitment.
Time is utterly promised in absence.
And money is wished for when it’s chiefly scarce.

Need for mercy is when guilt is your consequence.
Betrayal is graver from those close to you.
Patience is well learned when you just lost it.
Desire is rich in depths of need.

Hate is worst tasted in silence.
Regret is the best treasure after a disaster.
The fullness of fear is at the height of love.
Failure is most weighty just before success.

Beauty is fully beheld in desperation.
Life is well lived shortly.
Death is so near when your life is at its peak.

Set Free

Life has taught me what it means,
To be loved more than you deserve,
To be forgiven more that you forgive,
To live on second chances.

And still I could never measure up,
All my life efforts combined could not equal,
The measures I have been given,
I sit and wonder my worth in this.

But still I soldier on and need help,
Now am held by the hand,
To learn from her like her child,
To be transformed and be of the same mind.

Now I know more than ever,
The sacrifice of loving someone like me,
The loss and pain of forgiving me,
Just because I cause them to exist.

Farewell Brother K.

Do you stop and ask why you still alive?
What make you precious that people who are better than you?
Why you do nothing but you breathe on day after day?
A brother has left us.

A brother who I know presented our case before God.
A brother whose legacy will live on and on.
A brother who knew and showed the only love that exists, The Love of God.
A brother has left us.

Farewell Brother,
We who remain will embrace your legacy.
Till we meet again.

Covid-19, Living 2020.

A pandemic for the living generation,
That all nations are struggling to control,
The poor say it is a rich man disease,
The young say they are immune, it is for the old.
But this deadly virus knows no rank.

Only simple things are the blessing here,
Washing your hands is a life saving act,
A simple act of hygiene can protect the family,
It can break the chain of spreading the virus.
Quarantining oneself helps the family, neighbours and the community.

Please note that fear kills more than the plague.
And the feeling of losing a loved one is a very true fact every minute.
What is happening is beyond our worst imagination.
Death is now likened to breathing daily.

Please be careful for yourself and more so for those who love you,
Simple rules of washing hands and staying home are the hope we have,
This is a fight with an enemy you cannot see or touch,
No nuclear weapons can solve this.

Stay Home.
Stay Safe.

Gender

I am not just male or female,
It is not enough to define me a such,
My life and being is so much more.
And I get better as I increase in age.

For male or female is just a hardware,
Whose ability is weak to run itself and
To be consistent and improve by the day,
To sustain life and live as a proper being.

Let it be known that these are shells,
Which need specific and specialized attributes,
Which should be the definition of man and woman,
These attributes are the software that run the hardware.

Have understanding and embrace love,
Know yourself and control your emotions,
Be cautious and think in every action,
In problems think solution and be part of the solution.

A soul and mind that works patience,
A heart that is fashion with love and understanding,
Hands that can build anything to perfection.
And a spirit that is constantly fed righteousness.

Male or female are but carriers,
Being a man or a woman is the role.
Woman know your worth.
Man know your ability.

Life is necessary,
We all have hardware.
Living is a choice,
Our software defines us.

Servitude

Now I realize it’s too late for me,
I traded peace and love,
I traded joy and freedom,
I now live to fight.

I walk among the worst,
Among the judged and left for dead,
I walk among those who have nothing to live for,
I live to fight every day for my life.

It is said I do not deserve respect,
My body is not mine but for the cane,
My mind is not mine but for the foolish,
It is a fight of misuse but I still am me.

I am at a point where time matters not,
Where life revolves with the same sluggish mode,
Time stops here like it’s not a part of the world.
But I am still alive and have to fight.

All I gained is nothing compared to my losses,
This I know every moment I am stay stuck in my regrets,
Every time I plead my case to get a second chance,
Though I have lost already, fighting is all I live for.

I discover myself in these times,
How unsteady I am with my principles,
Why am never firm and easily swayed?
To win these fights I have to change.

To stand by my beliefs,
To act according to the my truth,
To fear no loss of nothing beyond my reach,
To understand what I can and cannot control.

My Back…

Where I push all my fears to,
Where I want my past to be,
What I chose to give mine enemies,
To inspire them to hurt me even more.

But I should care for my back,
I should strengthen my ultimate defense
For me to never to give up,
For me to never lose any part of me.

It’s what I should protect like I do my face,
It’s what I should give to all I trust,
To help protect and nature.
To carry all my righteousness and not recklessness.
To overcome revenge and spread healing.

How I know you been hurt,
Betrayed by those you trusted,
Your Scars are like a painting,
And the worst of time it is you and me against the wall,
But you choose the lessons from every failure.

You choose to give second chances,
You choose to see the good in people especially your companions,
Your personality is what gives you beauty,
You choose to overcome always than to despair.
You choose to show love and mercy for the longest time.